I never wanted my blog to become a depressing one. I knew I wasn't going to exactly have exciting things to blog about, but I never imagined having so many negative blog posts. But here goes another one unfortunately. Its really hard knowing that my parents struggle with bills, especially after all of the good things that have happened for us this year. I thought these things would bring change, and well being. But unfortunately they didn't bring those at all. They brought more stress, and more heart ache. Its hard getting up each morning, and knowing I can do nothing to help these two people that raised me, and had held me in their arms whenever I was sick, or sad, or just needed them to hold me. I hate seeing the struggle in their eyes, even when they try smiling. Sometimes I cry when I am alone. Just so they don't see how much their unhappiness affects me. Just so they don't get even more stressed out. I feel like such a burden for them. Me being unable to find a job only means I cant give them what little money I would be making. Any one reading this, thinking that its not that hard to find a job, how about you quit your job and try finding one with no experience. Anyways, God has a plan for all of us right? God knows what we are going to do before we do it? Then why would he make me go through all of these things just to fail them? I guess thats enough depression for you all tonight. I will try and think of something positive to blog about later today. Love you.
-Stacy
About Me
- Stacy
- Kalamazoo, MI, Michigan, United States
- My name is Stacy, and you'll probably get a good sense of the type of person I am just by reading my posts. "Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." — Marilyn Monroe
God never gives us more than we can handle, even though it doesn't always seem that way. Our trials are to make us stronger in our faith in Him. We need to learn to trust totally and completely in Him = not the world.
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I agree with Mrs. G. I know it's hard Stacy, But keep your chin up love. And your parents love you, I know you feel like a burden but Stacy, Your not. Your a blessing and I love having you as a part of my life. I wouldn't trade you in for anyone or anything. :)
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