Going Back.

Going back, and looking at all the things I said I was going to do, is heart breaking. Like saying that I am definitely going to finish cosmetology, or saying that I am going to stick with college and get my Nursing degree. Neither of them worked out. It's because of all my big insecurities. Thinking that I can't be smart enough to ace my Chem class, or smart enough to prove people wrong. I talked to my Brother in Law Nathan. He told me that people change their Majors all the time, almost everyday. But I cant help but to think that I am the only one who gave up. I cry because sometimes I think I let my parents down, or sometimes I am not good enough for anyone, and maybe I should have just stuck with Nursing. But because I am so insecure, and was way to shy to ask for help from my instructors I just gave up. I don't want anyone in my family to think of me as just a quitter, or just someone who always gives up. But I can't make my mind up of what I want to do. I mean I do have my eye on working towards getting my Masters degree in Interior Design, Ive always been somewhat passionate about it, from decorating my doll houses, to drawing up plans at an early age to now. But, when I tell my parents, they don't really say much. Like maybe they know, or just think that I will give that up too. Nathan said that when people do find that one thing that makes them happy, and one thing that they do want to spend the rest of their life doing they don't give it up because they love it enough to finish and go all the way with it. I am sure that it's true, but is and will it be true for me? Anyways, I know no one reads this blog. But most of the time I am hoping that someone will just randomly go by, and help me....
Love Stacy